Friday, August 12. 2005Howell Clarke
Bored. Bored, bored bored. Nothing to do anymore. I need a new project. I suppose I could work on a new engine for the environments, but nobody uses them any more. I wonder what Macon does with his spare time now. He probably goes to school. Should have been doing that anyway. Someday I ought to finish . . . Hey, Brain_Stem's back!
Night_Watcher[22:12]: Dude, you're back! How's it going? Brain_Stem[22:12]: Yes, I just got back. I'd like to discuss some things with you. So much for pleasantries Night_Watcher[22:13]: What's up? Brain_Stem[22:13]: Have you been working on new development? No need to tell HIM that I've been sitting on my hands for the last month. Or was it two? Night_Watcher[22:13]: No. I've been really busy with some contract work. Gotta keep food on the table, you know? Brain_Stem[22:14]: So, are you in a position now where you can restart development? Why are we doing this? Is it really worth it? I mean, I have all the anonymity I need most of the time. Before long, things will be big enough that we won't have to hide in the shadows. We'll actually be able to make a difference. Night_Watcher[22:14]: You know, I'm not sure it's really worth it.
Let him think that I want this for games. Night_Watcher[22:14]: I mean, do we really need to go to all of this effort just for games? Brain_Stem[22:15]: But it's not just for games. It's about making things better for people. Giving them a world without limitations. A world where they can be themselves. Night_Watcher[22:15]: Has this really made things better for you? Yeah, let him chew on that one. Brain_Stem[22:17]: Well, no. Night_Watcher[22:17]: So what makes you think that this would help anybody else? Brain_Stem[22:18]: Have you ever met someone with Lupus? How about MS? Have you seen someone with MS who's going through a relapse? Or have you talked to someone who's broken his back, and is confined to a wheelchair the rest of his life? Or how about MND? Ever known somebody with that? Do you have any idea how discouraged they become? How hopeless life can seem? How much pain they have to go through? I hate stuff like this. I hate it when I know that I'm wrong, but don't want to do anything about it. I just sit around feeling guilty until . . . Night_Watcher[22:19]: Ok, so maybe you're right. But it's not like these environments are going to cure any of those things. Brain_Stem[22:20]: No, they won't. But at least it will give those people someplace to escape to. It will give them someplace that is free from the pain, and the loss. And that might help them more than any drug or treatment could. Night_Watcher[22:20]: You know this is still going to take a long time, right? I mean, we're really not even close to being ready. Brain_Stem[22:20]: Every day you put it off makes the long time one day longer. There's the guilt trip again. I ought to just say no. Like the war on drugs. Night_Watcher[22:21]: Ok. Fine. I'll get to work on it tonight. Just don't expect me to do any more testing on myself. I may not know people with any of those weird diseases, but I do know what pain and discouragement feel like. Trackbacks
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