Annals of the Homestarmy - Hacking Existence

Revisions

nospam@example.com (Johnny Elbows) — Thu, 03 Nov 2005 09:09:53 -0700

I've finished the first round of revisions, and hopefully, I've addressed all of your concerns. This is what I've tried to do:

Clarify the aims of the "controllers"

Clarify who/what Rocio is

Clarify why they can't remember their first lives

Give Howell a powerful final episode

Develop a stronger sense of time passage

Clean up inconsistencies

I would appreciate your input on the revisions. You can find them here. Please let me know what you like, don't like, and/or don't understand.

Thanks

William Harres

nospam@example.com (Johnny Elbows) — Tue, 11 Oct 2005 08:38:26 -0600

My name is William Harres. I don�t remember much about my first life; she reassures me that with time, my memories will return. As for my second life, those memories are all too clear. It was, like every real life, full of joy and sadness, pain and gladness. My third life began when a beautiful woman leaned over me and said, �Wake up. Here, you don�t have to call me Rocio. All water flows to the sea. My name is Marea.� And mine, is William Harres.

Yes, I know. It's not a very satisfying ending. There are still too many unanswered questions. But that's the beauty of this story. Even though this IS the last episode, the story IS NOT finished. So, tell me what the dangling threads are. Let me know what the inconsistencies are. And when the story IS finished, hopefully, they'll all be taken care of

Tommy Xiang

nospam@example.com (Johnny Elbows) — Tue, 11 Oct 2005 08:37:26 -0600

Tommy started in bed, and looked over at the clock. It was four o� clock in the morning. Who would be knocking at this hour? He padded to the door, rubbing sleep out of his eyes as he went. He flicked on a light. There was no one at the door. Tommy was about to go back to bed when he noticed a small, flattish box wrapped in bright paper sitting on the floor. A present. Someone had remembered his birthday.

Tommy smiled bitterly as he picked it up. �What time will it come? What will it feel like?� He set the package on the table, and retrieved a knife from the drawer. He cut the tape with careful, meticulous strokes, untied the ribbon, and refolded the paper. He lifted the lid of the box and peered inside. He hefted the small white canvas bag, and felt the jingle of coins inside. Untying the loosely knotted string, he dumped the money into his open hand. The coins were sticky, coated in half-clotted blood. Tommy dropped them in revulsion, but the blood clung to his hands.

He hurried to the sink and began washing them. Over and over he washed them, drying them carefully on the towel until the towel was wet itself. The coins glistened up at him from their places on the floor and table, accusing him. He was shaking. He wanted to go back to bed, but he had to see what else was in the package.

A carefully folded newspaper covered the bottom of the box. On the front page, a picture of smoke and dust billowing from the mouth of a large cave sat below the headline, �Special Forces Root Out Insurgents.� Tommy�s hands shook as he unfolded the newspaper. He knew what that cave was. Two lines stood out to him as he read: �none of the insurgents survived,� and �rather than allow their equipment to fall into the hands of government agents, the insurgents destroyed everything.�

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Macon Craig

nospam@example.com (Johnny Elbows) — Tue, 11 Oct 2005 08:34:46 -0600

I don�t think that Night_Watcher took care of us the way that Lala wanted him to. I mentioned that to him as he handed me a weapon and showed me how to adjust my flak vest. �Do you want me to handcuff you and throw you into one of the back caverns?�

�No.�

�Shut up and quit complaining, then.� Above us, I heard the heavy doors grating shut. Night_Watcher pointed toward some stairs. �You two head up to the lookout tower. I�ll be up in a minute.� He turned to go, but then turned back. �If either of you disappear, so help me, I will hunt you down. And if I get a hold of you before she does, there won�t be anything left for her to play with. You got me?�

I nodded, mutely, and he ran off. We hurried up the stairs three at a time. From where we stood, things didn�t look good. Every few seconds, we saw the flash of mortar fire from a far-off ridge. The tower shook with every impact; I could only imagine what it was like nearer to the entrance where the explosions were flinging stones and earth into the air.

I watched the flashing stutter of machine-gun fire, dazed. All of this was my fault. I heard Rocio�s voice beside me. �Do something!� I watched as she fired at the place where she had seen gunfire a moment before. I thought I heard a scream, but I couldn�t be sure. I wasn�t sure about anything at the moment. The gun bucked in my hands as I sprayed the darkness. �Don�t just spray, shoot AT something.� I swallowed and nodded. This was all my fault.

I heard footsteps behind me. Lala, Keb, and Howell rushed up on to the platform. Lala looked at us, and turned to Howell. Somehow, I heard her hiss, �We�re going to talk about a few things when this is all over.� Without replying, Howell raised his gun to his shoulder and fired into the darkness, spraying enemy positions with carefully controlled bursts of destruction.

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Keb Jones

nospam@example.com (Johnny Elbows) — Mon, 10 Oct 2005 15:54:12 -0600

I tried to huddle back into the shadows. Anytime someone glanced my way, I shrank back. This, I knew, did not feel like I was doing something right. Macon and Rocio entered the room, flanked by two heavily armed guards. Lala watched impassively as they sat down, and then signaled the guards to leave.

When the door closed, Rocio spoke, her voice soft. �What�s going on?�

�That�s what we�d like to know.�

Rocio started to speak, but Howell interrupted. �I thought I could trust you.� At first, I thought he was talking to Rocio, but then I saw that he was looking right at Macon.

Macon just looked back at him with a puzzled, hurt expression on his face. �What�d we do?�

�We don�t know,� Lala replied, her voice low and even. �That�s why you�re here.�

I felt my heartbeat booming in the silence.

Rocio shifted in her chair, and frustration piquing her voice, said, �Ok. Somebody, tell me what�s going on. I�m lost here.�

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Hacking Existence: By the Dawn's Early Light

nospam@example.com (Johnny Elbows) — Mon, 10 Oct 2005 14:43:19 -0600

�Doesn�t look like things are going to last much longer, does it?�

�I�m always surprised at how cruel these people are.�

�Why? You know who they were.�

�I don�t know. I guess there�s just some part of me somewhere that still believes in redemption.�

�Well, if nothing else has, this probably won�t change that, but something should have.�

�It doesn�t make much sense, does it?�

�No. But people don�t. That�s something I�ve learned.�

�For sure.�

�So, you don�t think we should intervene?�

�You don�t want this to happen any more than I do, do you?�

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Macon Craig

nospam@example.com (Johnny Elbows) — Mon, 10 Oct 2005 13:53:52 -0600

I stepped out of the truck, a little dazed by the long ride while blindfolded, and by the sudden bright lights of the garage. I looked around. Behind me, night hid most of the land surrounding the bunker; I could see a few trees in the light from the garage, and not much else. A girl came and took my arm; I could only assume it was Rocio, since I didn�t recognize her. Night_Watcher had warned me that this would happen, but I hadn�t really believed him. Somehow, I was sure, I would recognize her.

I guess she knew what I was thinking. �You can still call me Rocio.�

�I thought I�d recognize you.�

�You�re incurable.�

�What do you mean?�

�You�re a hopeless romantic.� Then, in her best imitation of my voice, �I�ll recognize my love no matter what she looks like.� Dropping back into her normal voice, she said, �It�s cute.� Then she kissed me. I recognized that. �But not very realistic.�

She led me toward our room, grinning as I struggled to carry all of my bags and still hold her hand. �Aw, come on. Realism�s overrated.�

She stopped, and turned to me, suddenly serious. �I think you might be right. I hope so. �Cause sometimes, reality really, really sucks.� Without a word of explanation, she continued down the passage, and I was left wondering about what she said.

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Tommy Xiang

nospam@example.com (Johnny Elbows) — Fri, 07 Oct 2005 08:47:00 -0600

Brain_Stem:

I should have written you long ago; I owed you that courtesy, but courtesy has never been my strong point, and even my stay with your brother couldn't cure that. It did cure almost everything else, though. Those days were some of the best days of my life. I think I can honestly say that in just a few months, JT changed who I am. He�s a great guy. You should be proud of him.

I�m slowly adjusting to life back in life. I look back at the time I spent in Chinatown, and I have a hard time believing that it was completely real. It was just so different from here. Do you ever miss it? Do you ever regret that you chose to leave it? I do. I think that the thing I miss most about it was the sense of belonging that I felt there. Everyone there knows that they�re part of a community. It�s a cool feeling.

I�m hoping that I�ll be feeling that feeling again soon. Today, a courier delivered an unexpected letter to me, telling me that I�ve been granted permission to move into Howell�s conspiracy bunker. They�re going to send some people to escort me in on Friday. I think that the same sense of community will probably exist there, and I�m looking forward to it.

Anyway, I hope things are going well for you. Again, thank you so much for your help. Say hi to JT for me the next time you talk to him.

Macon

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Keb Jones

nospam@example.com (Johnny Elbows) — Fri, 07 Oct 2005 08:46:17 -0600

I stood beneath the high archway of the door, and looked from one to another. Three people, all stiff and formal, their politeness masking the hostility that lurked just beneath the veneer, stared at each other uncomfortably. One of them glanced at me, and, if it was possible, stiffened even more. I clutched at the piece of paper that I held in my hand, and shifted the bag on my shoulder to a new position.

Howell noticed me, and looked visibly relieved. He started to approach, but the girl, the one who had reacted to my presence just moments before, checked him with a question. �What�s he doing here?�

I held out the paper. �They gave me a permit.�

�I can see that,� she replied, icily. �What I�m wondering is, why?�

�He�s been very useful,� Lala answered.

�I�m sure he has been. How much did you have to pay him to switch sides?�

�Hey,� Howell stepped between the two girls. �There�s no need for this.�

�Maybe you forgot, but there would be no need for us to be living here if it weren�t for him.�

Howell looked at her. �Calm down. Now.� He spoke softly, but his voice carried authority. Turning to me, he beckoned. �Come on, I�ll show you your room.�

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Macon Craig

nospam@example.com (Johnny Elbows) — Wed, 05 Oct 2005 08:17:15 -0600

It�s amazing how much time changes some things, and how little it changes others. I shuffled the last of my things into my duffle bag, and glanced around the room. It had been a welcome shelter for me, a place to get back on my feet. I exhaled slowly, closing my eyes, and turned to walk out of the room. As I did, I noticed the portrait of Rocio sitting on the table near the door.

I still felt like there was some kind of hole in my life. Something was missing that nothing else seemed to fill in. I had learned to send my thoughts elsewhere, to focus my feelings on other things, but when I came back to the part of me that was me, the space that I made for her was still there, and she wasn�t there to fill it.

I rolled the portrait carefully, and slipped it into one of the outside pockets of the bag. The door closed softly behind me as I left the room. In the kitchen, JT�s wife was chopping carrots for lunch. She turned as I entered. �I�m sorry you leave,� she said.

�Yeah, so am I,� I replied, �but I can�t run anymore.�

She smiled. I was never sure how much she understood when I spoke to her. We stood there, looking at each other, and then she stepped forward, and ducking her head, put her arms around me. As she patted me on the back, she said, �You be good.�

I don�t know why I started crying, but when she stepped away, I saw her through tear-starred eyes, and said, �You too.� I turned before things could become awkward, and hurried out the front door onto the narrow, bustling streets of Chinatown. The metallic sounds of vendors calling out their wares mixed with the aromas of ginger, soy, and curry, and left an impression on me that I would never forget. I hoped that I would see this place again.

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Tommy Xiang

nospam@example.com (Johnny Elbows) — Thu, 29 Sep 2005 13:56:10 -0600

Tommy was rather startled when he left his office and was immediately joined by Phillip and Arnold. The look on both of their faces told him that something was wrong. �What happened?�

�Howell,� said Phillip.

�We tried to get him to add the memory masking module, the aging module, and the scent module to the code base, but he refused.� Arnold explained.

�Well,� Phillip corrected, �actually, he added the scent module, but he wouldn�t add the others.�

�Why not?� Tommy looked puzzled.

�Said they weren�t right.�

�They weren�t right? What was wrong with them? Did he find a bug?�

�No, nothing like that. He said that it wasn�t right, uh, philosophically, I guess.�

�Philosophically?�

�Yeah. He said he�s not going to let anybody live a lie.�

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Keb Jones

nospam@example.com (Johnny Elbows) — Thu, 29 Sep 2005 11:08:49 -0600

She calls me the chameleon, because she says that I can blend in no matter where I go. The others have a nickname for me, too, one that�s not quite so flattering. They call me the rat. When she heard them calling me the rat, she asked them why they called me that. They said, �Look at him. He�s skinny, his eyes poke out, and even though everyone sees him, they do their best to pretend that he doesn�t exist.� I prefer the chameleon.

Either way, though, I don�t think that Lala and Howell trust me completely. I really can�t blame them, but I think I�m making progress. Eventually, I hope they�ll give me permission to move into the bunker. Until then, though, I�m the chameleon. I find my way into the places where no one else can go. Before long, the new group forgets that I'm around, and I hear things, and see things, and I tell everything I see and hear to Lala and Howell. Someday soon, they�ll trust me. Until they do, at least I know I�m doing something right. And that feels good.

We�re getting close. I may not be able to stay in the bunker, but a couple of nights ago, in the middle of the night, I heard a soft tap on my door. Howell and Lala grinned at me out of the darkness. �Can we crash on your couch tonight?� They�ve been here since then. Lala�s been doing something with a little group that meets in a local dive, and she and Howell are practically inseparable these days.

I guess I�m a chameleon even around them, because today, when I came home, they didn�t even notice me, and I heard some things I probably shouldn�t have heard.

�What�re you so mad about?�

�It�s Phillip and Arnold. They�ve spent a lot of time working on a couple of new modules, and, well, the code�s great, but I just can�t add it to the code base.�

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Tommy Xiang

nospam@example.com (Johnny Elbows) — Tue, 27 Sep 2005 13:58:22 -0600

Tommy glanced at his watch anxiously. If this weren�t his day off, he�d be leaving for work right now. He wasn�t quite sure what to do with himself. He never was on his days off. He had nothing on his to-do list, at least not for several hours, no plans, nowhere to go until late in the afternoon. So, what now? He picked up his keys and walked out the door, hurrying because it was his habit to hurry toward the elevator. He waited impatiently for the chime, and stepped into the elevator the moment that the door opened.

He hurried out of the lobby, and scanned the street, searching for a newspaper stand. He found one, slammed several coins on the counter in front of the startled attendant, and rushed off, carrying a thick newspaper under his arm. He had no reason for his hurry, but the trip back to his apartment was just as rushed as the trip out had been. Once inside, he threw the newspaper down and began flipping through it hurriedly. A large picture on the front of the third section caught his eye. Screaming faces peered out of the page underneath a headline that read, �Anarchists Rally in Abandoned City.�

Tommy wondered if the anarchists included Howell�s friends, and began to read, without much interest. The reporter�s bias was obvious: nearly everything he wrote was meant to show how ridiculous the anarchists� demands were. One line, though, seemed to stick out in Tommy�s mind. �During her harangue, Ms. Lala at one point told the crowd that SDS was not a disease, but a conspiracy, a plot by the government to kill off those who were no longer useful.�

He set the paper down, and stared into the distance. �Impossible. There�s just no way they could do it. Besides, why would they do it? If they were just trying to get rid of the people who weren�t useful, they wouldn�t kill everyone.� He spent the rest of the morning cleaning and thinking.

When Andy Swenson entered his office, Tommy could tell that something had changed. Andy looked stronger, happier, and more alive. �How are things going?�

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Keb Jones

nospam@example.com (Johnny Elbows) — Tue, 27 Sep 2005 09:44:47 -0600

I knew it was coming, but that didn�t help. We even knew what day it was coming, but as I stepped into my grandparents� house, and saw my grandfather hunched over on the sofa, sobbing, I knew that knowing hadn�t helped him any more than it had helped me. Grandma loved to talk about God, loved to say that he was out there somewhere, guiding us and watching us. I looked at my grandpa, sitting alone on the couch, and knew that he would be gone, too in just a couple of months. Maybe she�s right, I thought. Maybe there is a God. I choked back a sob, and screamed out in my mind, God, if you�re out there, I hope you�re watching this. With that, I raised my fist to the sky, and flipped God the bird.

It didn�t change anything. Grandma was still dead. Grandpa would be dead within months. My mother would still be gone; my father would still be an unknown. But somehow, I felt a little bit better.

The funeral was small and quiet. To most people, Grandma wasn�t anyone important. She was just one more old lady in a neighborhood filled with them, but to those who came to the funeral, she was important. We gathered around the casket to say our good-byes, and I found, to my surprise, that I was standing across from Amir. As I looked across at his tear-stained face, he gave me a little wistful smile, and then bowed his head.

He caught up to me as I walked out of the church. �You OK?�

I swallowed back the lump in my throat, and tried my best to smile. �Yeah.�

�So, what now? Are you going back to school?�

I shook my head. �No, I don�t think so. I�ve gone away twice now, and both times, something�s happened to drag me back. I think I�m going to stay this time. Besides, I want to be here, for Grandpa.�

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Howell Clarke

nospam@example.com (Johnny Elbows) — Mon, 26 Sep 2005 08:33:05 -0600

I guess I should have known. If I were to tell her that I didn�t know, and didn�t like it, she�d probably tell me that I am na�ve. And really, I guess I do have a spy network of my own. Mine just seems, I don�t know, more . . . well, less illegal. I don�t know if I needed to know all of that stuff about Brain_Stem. It�s kind of disturbing to think about him working with them. It almost feels like he�s trying to replace me, like he feels like I�m expendable. It�s like losing a partner. Or a friend. And that bit about him assuring them that their code will be accepted? He doesn�t have that kind of authority. That is my prerogative. I get to say what is acceptable code and what is not. Why does he suddenly believe that he should be able to determine that?

And what should I do about this letter from Keb? Lala doesn�t trust him. Can�t say that I blame her. I really don�t trust him either. But I kind of feel like I ought to give him a second chance. Do you get second chances, though, when you�re playing with peoples� lives? We could have been killed. At the very least, we would have been imprisoned if it weren�t for Rocio. I wish there were some way of knowing, really knowing.

Prince_Phillip[10:47]:Good morning.

Night_Watcher[10:47]: I don�t know about the good part.

Prince_Phillip[10:48]: Why�s that? Is something wrong?

Night_Watcher[10:48]: Several things.

Prince_Phillip[10:48]: Oh? Like what?

Night_Watcher[10:49]: Well, for one thing, your code.

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